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Friday, July 30, 2010

The old pull, the tide drawing me back in. I kept getting caught in this current - first love, I mean. First love kept making me come back to this, to him. He still took my breath away, just being near him. I had been lying to myself the night before, thinking I was fine, thinking I had let him go. It didn't matter what he said or did, I'd never let him go.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

life can be perfect , it's just the way you look at things .
i know girls tend to think very deep into a simple matter .
it's kinda a natural habit .
but i realised it's bad .
why make the world look so complex when it can actually be very simple ?
i have no idea when i started t think that way , but i am happy i did .
since we can't change anything just by thinking way deep into stuff ,
then why bother t ?
let go and let God handle all of them .
don't force the way things are going cause it only makes life tough and depressing .

in my case , i've learnt t let go of forcing things t go my way .
it isn't meant t be my way in the first place .
throw all of your burdens away and live life happily .
don't think too much into situations, just think simple and make life easier .
trust me , it works . *winks*

Monday, July 26, 2010

after attending church yesterday , i felt like everything has come into place .
thank you Lord . (:

Friday, July 23, 2010

i wish i wasn't born .
because of that , more people in this world suffer .
i seriously don'tk what to do .
i know what i want , but it seems as if i have to across the Sahara desert to be safe and sound .
and i'm not prepared to face all of these .
i really need the strength t carry on .
my family's going through the worst times in our lives .
it's stressing me out big time .
i have to put on a strong front in front of others so that i don't cause worries .
my aunts are alr worrying about my mom so much and i don't wish t add on t their worries .
it only makes our lives more miserable .

and i feel like telling you straight in your face that YOU HAVE BROUGHT SO MUCH SADNESS IN OUR LIVES THAT NOTHING CAN EVER CLEAR THEM .

if you really win , highly likely that i would attempt suicide .

Thursday, July 22, 2010

i'm really afraid to lose you .
cause if i do , i know you wouldn't come back to me anymore .

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Distance means so little when someone means so much.

guess what !
two more days and i can start texting like hell again ! :p
hehe .

school was awful tday .
had cramps and backache so badly that i couldn't even sit up during lessons .
lucky for chinese lesson + recess that i had 2 hours t sleep despite how noisy the class was .
not forgetting jiawei's panadol ! (THANK YOU SO MUCH !)
i wonder how he know that i needed it desperately ! :O
*thinks*

AND GUYS !
I FINALLY FINISHED ECONS HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENT ! :D
ms chong will be so happy !
except that i left 4 blanks , one of them worth 12m .
but i seriously don'tk how t do okaaay ! :/ heh .

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

had chinese 'O' levels listening comprehension this afternoon .
i like the symphonic music they played before the paper !
super coool , like help us t relaxxxx . :D
(although it made me super sleepy too :p)

went northpoint with secrene after that .
got my school shoes and went t meet up with my sisters and homed .
now i'm missing a backpack , a hairband and smth else which i forgot what is it . :/
oh yeah , i need piercings !
shall do that by this month hopefully !
shineeee earrings here i comeeeee ! *winks*

love you girls , xox (K)

Monday, July 19, 2010

if i could hold on to you,

i am still feeling super lazy t upload my birthday pictures . :p
hehe .

firstly i would like t say a BIG thankyou t everyone who wished me ! :D
it didn't turn out t be the worse i expected thankfully .
i'm really thankful i have such friends like all of you ! ♥♥♥

anw i have t go off now .
got loads of stuff t do - pack , work , study , sleep !
the latter is the most impt one of course !
hehehe .

tataa everyoneeeee !
jiayouuuuuuuuuuuu ! (:

Thursday, July 15, 2010

you were the one who promised t help me .
if you don't wanna help me now then tell me .
don't try t act like you wanna help .
and when i said forget it ,
you asked me if it's okay with me .
WHAT ELSE CAN I DO WHEN YOU DON'T WANNA HELP .
DON'T TRY T BE A GOOD GUY AND CHEAT MY FEELINGS .
I THOUGHT YOU WERE SINCERE .
BUT IT TURNS OUT THAT I WAS VERY WRONG ABOUT YOU .

i don'tk if i should trust you anymore .
i hope you realised you've ruined my day .
and i get a feeling that this will be the worst birthday ever .

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

i wonder if two totally different people can be tgether .
cause sometimes , it's really difficult . ):

Monday, July 12, 2010

happy birthday Rachel !

happy birthday Regina !

we are all turning old .
and it'll be my turn this sunday . ):

anw , thank you Regina, Rachel, Johanna and Weidi for your presents !
i really really super love them so muchhhhhhh ! :D
*heart heart heart*

i'm moving out this friday .
freaking sadded , lived in bishan for almost al my life !
and just when everything's so convenient here , i have t move out . )))))):
plus i haven't been t admiralty before .
how am i supposed t get used t the life over there ?
i could go crazy . :S

-

Love leads to laughter
Love leads to pain
With you by my side
I feel good times again

Never have I felt these feelings before
You showed me the world
How could I ask for more

And although there's confusion
We'll find a solution to keep my heart close to you

And I know, yes I know
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

Show me affection
In all different ways
Give you my heart
For the rest of my days

With you all my troubles are left far behind
Like heaven on earth
When I look in your eyes

No need to cry
I'll be right by your side
(Right by your side)

Let's take our time
Love won't run dry
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love
And I know
There is nothing that I would not do for you

Forever be true
And I know

Oh I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

Saturday, July 10, 2010

hiiieeeee !

yesterday's July babies party was awesome !
went with Regina and Rachel t PS for Ichiban sushi !
aaaah super niceee ~
was arguing with Regina the whole way through since we got out of school . :p
and then Rachel joined in .
heeee ! :D

then we went shopping after that .
more of window shopping though .
then , the time has come !
we went out of the shop and ..
i saw Darren oppositeeeeee !
AAAAAAAH I WAS SO DELIGHTED ! :D :D :D
then we went t the side t meet . (:
i had this feeling the day before that we may meet cause he told me he was going town too !
hahahah seriously i can't believe it still .
but i'm still so happy . *WINKS*
then he came t tag along and bugged me t go home . -.-
walked around for awhile before he left (due t some unhappy stuff that ruined the day) . ):

i made my way t ikea after that t meet my mom and sis .
wanted t get furnitures but bought nothing . -.-
so i reached home around 10.15 , still in my uniform . D:

chatted with D on the phone until past midnight then i said goodnight t the world . (;

*happy tenth !

Thursday, July 08, 2010

what crap feeling am i getting now .

you're the one by my side whenever i needed you t .
you never fail t cheer up my day .
whenever i miss those days you'll tell me all about it .
whenever i feel like ranting at someone you're always there for me .

diary , here i come .

I have nothing more to give you than my heart.

chinese oral was a small breeeezeeeeeeee ~
i must say it's a small one cause i'm not 100% confident of getting a distinction . :/
but i can say it was alright . (:

i've wrapped the doubleRs' presents !
still working on their card though .
wondering if i should just write a small note or really handmake one .
i'll decide later , cause right now ..
i'm busy ! *winks* hehe .

and should i watch the 9pm show on channel 8 with 3 hawt hawt guys ?
yangyang , vinvin and yuanshuai ! :D
aaaaah i can go crazy watching it manszxc !
but i'm afraid that once i watch it i'll get hooked on t it .
then no time for studying . ):
how how !

whatever , i have no idea what am i typing either .
goodnightyyyyyy ! :D

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

happy birthday kimbum ! (:

i know i betrayed you , but i still think you're hawt ! hehe . :p

went amk hub with wendayeeee !
and i bought her earrings for no good reason .
sometimes i wonder why am i so nice . LOLLLLLLLL !
and i found many pairs of earrings while packing my stuff !
wonder why i have them when i don't even have piercings . :/

neewayyyyyy , chinese 'O' level oral tmrw !
and i haven't even touched the 60-pages oral notes .
ooopsy . :p
i know i know , i'll go study later .
but seriously , my chinese confirm cmi one uh . ):

and still i think friday's gonna be great !
out with the 2Rs - Regina and Rachel !
perhaps i can meet my mom and sisters at Ikea t shop for furnitures after that too . (;

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

hug me like that , will you ?

i'm freaking sadded now .
currently on a 'cold war' with Darren and i super regret starting the whole thing .
and tday's only the first day !
another 4 more days of torture .
missing D like crazy ! ):

and my cousin forwarded this text message .
i think it's really true .
here's some of it:

- girls love it when guys hug them from behind the waist .
- girls love it when guys let them wear their hoodie or jacket .
- there is only one person who is worth your tears .
- chocolate makes you feel better .

girls , don't you all agree ?
heee . :D

anyway , i'm supposed t be studying for chemistry now .
but i don't even know if i'm supposed t take the class test tmrw or not . :/
for precaution i better study .
what a good girl . :p

ohyah , i bought rachel's present at j8 tday !
no idea where t get regina's but there is't must time left ! :S
day out with them this friday most probably !
july babies ftw ! :D

to D ,
keep the faith ! i will hold on . i know i can ! (;

Monday, July 05, 2010

the weekend was screwed up .
i was actually looking forward t sunday .
but all is ruined ,
because of one person .

sunday was the day t look forward t for the week .
i thought it was gonna be great spending time with D at the library@Esplanade .
but who knew this one person made me freaking annoyed and frustrated .
then i tried not t think about it .
but it just keeps coming back t me .

and when there were no seats at the library ,
we went up t the rooftop terrace instead .
there , it was really pretty and romantic .
like the perfect place for two .
but i really couldn't keep all the problems inside me .
so i ruined the day by pouring out all of my woes .
i was really thankful that D was there for me .
he was being really nice .
*tears of joy and sadness*

if you read my previous post , i was supposed t have a date with D , S and C .
but yeah i had no mood t go out in the midst of all these problems .
so i said couldn't make it .
but now i really feel like getting out of home .

-

on saturday night , D came over just t pass me KOI's milk tea he bought for me . (:
super duper touched !
but although it turned out t be hazelnut which he bought for his sis ,
it still tasted alright , except that it was super sweeet .
(cause D's being really sweet t me)
*tears of joy*

i feel like going t the library now .

Saturday, July 03, 2010

with you by my side , my life is saturated with colours (L)

i think tday's gonna be boring .
i'll spend my time mugging , sleeping , eating , breathing , dreaming , chatting , yawning , and smiling t myself throughout the day .
but a person's perspection of 'boring day' consists of doing so many things .
so what is the real meaning of 'boring' ?!

(reading that again , it somehow doesn't make sense t me)

but tmorrow's gonna be awesome !
and i think monday too !
church in the morning tmrw and then another study date with snoopy !
out till after dinner and then i will be back home grinning from ear t ear most probably ! :D

how about monday ?
a double study date with D , S and C !
and then maybe pool after that !
aaaah super excited ~ ! ((((((((((:

Thursday, July 01, 2010

you know you're in love when reality is better than any dream.

it's the first day of the 2nd half of the year ! :O
serious torture is coming up ! ):
(plus someone's birthday too ! *hint hint* :p)

alright today .
super happy cause i only had t bring ss book t school !
i think the whole of 4faith is thankful for that . :D
but whitespace was awful . actually kinda cool .
it's like the first time the 4express did a relay run !
AND WE CAME IN FIRST !
(from the back ! HAHAH LOL !)

then after school i went t meet this son of mine .
went coffee bean t study and chat .
then we contiuned chatting at some void deck while i finish my koi .
we had a really nice chat !
and i realised something that makes me an extraordinary happy girl . (;
hehe .
after that , this son of mine sent me home which was like two blocks away ?
but i like that . :p

when i get home , i went t bathe and then laid on my bed t write in my diary .
a nice feeling doing that .
like breakaway from everything .
but soon after , i went back to reality and did a little bio . :/

looking forward t this sunday !
hopefully i will be able t go t church and then another study date at the Esplanade ! :D
monday's a school holiday !
*devicing a plan* ;)